Waiting for the Son

Bloated and floating into maternity She sighs. Her mood deflated by the belated arrival – Hoping that phial of euphoria will soon Take affect. Heavy and listless, A whale beached on a dry and stuffy shore – Longing to see who will appear At the end of the road, To say hello, and seek the…

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Blank

(I have been thinking about grief lately….) Sat In a heady daze of low-grade dizziness. Wishing for sleep. Dreams skirting around the edges of my mind – but never committing. Quitting the housework after the washing up Danced, jig-like, Over the edge of the sink – Your plate clattering to the floor, As I stared…

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“So you’re just going to have fifteen children then are you?!?!?”

I hear this sort of a comment from many people, particularly Christians, when they hear that my husband and I don’t use contraception. Usually it’s accompanied by an incredulous and pitiful look, strongly implying that we must be imbeciles/weirdos/out of date catholics/uneducated (pick your favourite),  followed by the comment that we obviously won’t be able…

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Things to lift your spirits – part 2.

Hot baths, mud-larking with my kids, the smell of a new book, a homemade card, a tidy re-shuffled room, clear days, a glass of red wine, hearing you tell me you love me, receiving a hand-written letter, that moment when understanding clicks. Playing board games with friends, roast dinner, early nights, seeing a friend’s first…

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New year, new approach.

“Then the lion said — but I don’t know if it spoke — You will have to let me undress you. I was afraid of his claws, I can tell you, but I was pretty nearly desperate now. So I just lay flat down on my back to let him do it. “The very first…

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